whats up with me?? the kind of things i struggle with..my latest problem is that if im in a vehicle..2-wheeler, 4-wheeler, whatever (planes not included)..i have to be in the driver's seat...yeah exactly, thats my problem...if im not driving, the other person is just not good enough...they are either too fast, too slow, too close to the other vehicle, too inexperienced to judge if the car in front of us is slowing down, too late in applying brakes, blah blah....
i always feel i could do better and if they are not driving my way, then they are wrong...i cant relax..my reflexes keep acting up...have you ever brought your right leg to slam on the brakes when you are sitting NEXT to the driver? I have...
its always been my problem...i have always had a list of people with whom ive not had to worry if they are driving/riding...maggi, abs, bug, cao, jat, taxi drivers, auto drivers (they drive everyday through the same lanes, they are pros at this thing..afterall they are drivers)...
but lately it has worsened beyond a point and i just cant overlook it now..what really bothered me was when the other day i was not comfortable when abs was driving...now, come on..he used to drive before i learnt to drive and he has never been involved in an accident..not so much as even a scratch on his car...and there i am feeling, "ooooops..why is he so close to this car?" "why cant he apply brakes?" "why is he trying to overtake the bus?"...really, the guy deserves better than this!!
and bikes are an entirely different story...i just dont feel safe on a bike...no matter who is riding...it was not the case earlier..for 2 years i have scanned every street of mumbai from one end to the other on a bike...as recently as 6 months back, i have gone with jat from powai to nerul on his bike and i was quite okay...but here? now? no way...there's no way i can sit on a bike...sitting on a bike makes my adrenaline rush, my heart starts beating faster, i keep my eyes shut tightly and pray to God i am safe...wierd, isnt it?
so it all boils down to me driving (i dont know how to ride bikes) every time i am going somewhere...i reason its better to be in-charge and take a little more effort than to sit doing nothing without having peace of mind..because when im driving im very confident, i feel in-control and safe...i drive extremely well. period.
too much self-belief or too less faith in other people????
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with the kind of drivers in bangalore, i would be paranoid too!
Its 'die f***er'. Because graded me really really unfairly. :(
Aside from the traffic, coming around to like Blore as yet ki nahi?
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