why did i come here

life teaches you so much...so so very much...i know the truth in this statement more than any other fact in this world. this is one statement i can back with my life. may be becoz ive just learnt a big lesson in my life.. what the lesson is will come later. this is about why i came to this place.

ive heard this in a movie..man is the only animal that hides its feelings... why do we do this? hiding what we feel...not saying what we would die to say..not showing our love, or hatred or indifference... most of the time you could say that it was because we cared just enough for the other person's feelings. but then why cant we tell anyone if we love them...or when they've hurt us and dont even realize it..or maybe something more personal that you want the other person to know...or a decision that you've taken and want to put it across...why?

fear...one simple answer...fear of rejection..fear of embarassment..fear of not-being-understood...

and whats the solution

alcohol..again a simple answer...but doesnt go down too well with everyone...but trust me it works...its not magic...its a trick. try this...prepare whatever you have to say in advance...well in advance. then go over it nicely but not so nicely that it looks as if you actually learnt it by heart(keep the reality). then choose a nice setting...down a few glasses (2 shud be enuf...one is like being too greedy) depending upon your reputation..a drink-like-fish kind of guy would not get sloshed in 2 glasses, get it?

with that done...get down to the topic...bring it up..very casually...all the while as if you never thought you would speak about it in the first place...get all your emotions out...say whatever you had "prepared"...you can cry, apologize, be mushy or whatever the situation demands...trust me the strength comes from within...you've lost that one thing...inhibition..the root of it all...

next day you could say...i never meant to say it all like this...i was drunk..im so embarassed.. but i meant it....

sounds good?
it works as good...

ive tried it ..n number of times...(alcoholic? me? no...im the 2 glasses girl..thank you)

but then there are some things which you dont understand WHOM to tell...see the problem..no ears.. or rather whose ears? these feelings are so vague yet so rooted, so personal yet so shareable, and then i realized this is the answer...blog...nemesis

so here i am...