pride and insight

its amazing how much insight almost-complete strangers can give you about yourself. Must admit, before this I was never open to other people dissecting me, but now i dont go all mad if you say something a little nasty but true.

I mean imagine a white guy i met on a bus ride to the airport says something like "you have a lot of pride"..and im like "yeah he may be right..just a tad bit but right" see its like it was cold and he ordered hot chocolate and i took something cold to drink and he suggested that i could change my order..then he offered me his drink but nope..moi stuck to my chilly drink in chilly weather.. and then he came up with that pearl of wisdom and i shall repeat for effect "you have a lot of pride" . i didnt have the brains to order a hot chocolate or even a tea, anything hot..on top of that i couldnt even admit that i could've done better.

My friends have tried earlier to make me realize the same thing, but they were like "you have such a huge ego problem" or "you are such an egoist" but i never thought about that..ego was never an attribute i associated with myself..i was like..no im like damn awesome and amiable and cool and friendly and tolerant and i can put up with a lot of things of a lot of ppl. Lets be very clear here that im not denying that im any of that..i am all that with a touch of pride..:P

and to think about it its not too bad to have a little bit of pride, is it? so now when ppl around me say that you have a very big ego i only say..."its not ego..the word is pride/self-respect" depending on the situation. you know what? a little pride is very essential..you have to value yourself before expecting anyone else to value you..and then how can anyone not be proud of what they have grown up to become? I am.