How important is love? if you ask me today... extremely.
Six months back this would not be my answer..but then perceptions can change in seconds and six months is a long time. Well, actually nothing changed in my life..only realization set in. realization that if your entire world is going for a toss in front of your eyes and you are not in command of your own life and you can still manage to smile..it has to be more than your strength, it has to be more than optimism, it has to be more than hope. And now I know what it is.
It is love.
It is the feeling of being loved. It is the smug knowledge that however bad my day or night has been, I would feel better..its just a matter of minutes..just a matter of a phone call. It is the knowledge that I have these people in my life…friends, family.. who always recognise the im-not-alright tone of my voice and they would do anything to change that. It is this feeling, this security that runs my life, makes it more livable. It is like when I am with these people or when I talk to them, I am in an entirely different world. A world that I like to be in.
These people don’t solve my problems..they cant…they would if they could... But then, they help by just being there for me..by just letting me know that they are there for me. They just help by coming up with their incredible sense of humor..they just help by making me laugh like im a kid with no worries in life…they just help by taking me out for coffees or walks,or calling me in for teas and meals, by coming all the distance just to see me…they just help by making me feel loved, wanted. When I am with them, my life seems brighter, the problems disappear.
Six months back I would say that love is just a figment of your own imagination..it doesn’t exist, you just imagine that you love someone..and after a while you get over this feeling, you get over a person..it was always this easy for me..my crushes and getting over them has always been a mind game for me…if you make up your mind you can get over anyone.
But now I know that love exists. I cant define the feeling, but now I know love..i know attachment..i know giving without wanting anything in return. I know that it has always existed for me. I was just not aware of its presence..but all those smiles that I smiled to myself were because of this love, because of these people who love me..who I love. Now I know that love is not a figment of our imagination..i know its not a mind game…wanting someone is..loving is not.
I would really really want to thank you (sounds formal and sad…a person has to say some things some times)..and especially Su..i knew you would understand even if I murdered someone in cold blood…you know some things which are quite close to being as bad..and you have never judged me..you have understood my choices, my thinking.
I cant imagine life without you guys…maybe im not too good at putting this point across but I know this..and you should know that you are the fuel of my life..this life is so much better coz I have you. What would I do without you?
do I need to say…I love you too!!
Six months back this would not be my answer..but then perceptions can change in seconds and six months is a long time. Well, actually nothing changed in my life..only realization set in. realization that if your entire world is going for a toss in front of your eyes and you are not in command of your own life and you can still manage to smile..it has to be more than your strength, it has to be more than optimism, it has to be more than hope. And now I know what it is.
It is love.
It is the feeling of being loved. It is the smug knowledge that however bad my day or night has been, I would feel better..its just a matter of minutes..just a matter of a phone call. It is the knowledge that I have these people in my life…friends, family.. who always recognise the im-not-alright tone of my voice and they would do anything to change that. It is this feeling, this security that runs my life, makes it more livable. It is like when I am with these people or when I talk to them, I am in an entirely different world. A world that I like to be in.
These people don’t solve my problems..they cant…they would if they could... But then, they help by just being there for me..by just letting me know that they are there for me. They just help by coming up with their incredible sense of humor..they just help by making me laugh like im a kid with no worries in life…they just help by taking me out for coffees or walks,or calling me in for teas and meals, by coming all the distance just to see me…they just help by making me feel loved, wanted. When I am with them, my life seems brighter, the problems disappear.
Six months back I would say that love is just a figment of your own imagination..it doesn’t exist, you just imagine that you love someone..and after a while you get over this feeling, you get over a person..it was always this easy for me..my crushes and getting over them has always been a mind game for me…if you make up your mind you can get over anyone.
But now I know that love exists. I cant define the feeling, but now I know love..i know attachment..i know giving without wanting anything in return. I know that it has always existed for me. I was just not aware of its presence..but all those smiles that I smiled to myself were because of this love, because of these people who love me..who I love. Now I know that love is not a figment of our imagination..i know its not a mind game…wanting someone is..loving is not.
I would really really want to thank you (sounds formal and sad…a person has to say some things some times)..and especially Su..i knew you would understand even if I murdered someone in cold blood…you know some things which are quite close to being as bad..and you have never judged me..you have understood my choices, my thinking.
I cant imagine life without you guys…maybe im not too good at putting this point across but I know this..and you should know that you are the fuel of my life..this life is so much better coz I have you. What would I do without you?
do I need to say…I love you too!!
1 comment:
title is most impressive :).... even though, there may be some strong mutual understanding between the two ppl involved ..... but i must say that she "needs to say" this thing to him ..... this is something, which can become inspiration or motivation for him and he can spend rest of his life after knowing this ..... love is something, which teaches you so many things in life .... if everything goes fine, then it is cherishing otherwise its no less than a tsunami ..... so you must share the feeling of "being loved" .... theres was a conversation in "lakshya" movie ......
boy : kal mein ek mission pe jaa rahaa hoon .....
girl: mein intezaar karungi .....
boy : ho sakta hai, mein waapas naa aaoon .....
girl: toh mein zindagi bhar intezaar karungi .....
love is something which will make you laugh in the crowd suddenly, lose urself while watching a movie, go out and make a call in cold midnite even in snowfall ... blah blah blah ....
also i think, there is "very thin like a hair" line between friendship and love .... you will suddenly realize that you have fallen in love with someone, who was just a friend till yesterday ....but there is a huge gap between lust and love ..... love cant evolve from lust ..... so enuf gyan on love now ..... thanx to some cool hindi movies on love like hum tum .... i can write a book on love .... agar life mein kucch nahi kar sakaa toh marne se pehle 1 book jaroor likh doonga ......
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